Saturday, November 22, 2008
Double Whammy
In case you're out there wondering, try #1 (out of 4 possible) with the OI/IUI procedure proved unsuccessful. This comes as a shock to anyone who had heard the details along the way because everything looked to be so promising. The news hits as a double whammy due to the fact that if the first pregnancy had not ended in a miscarriage, we would be delivering the week of Thanksgiving. I was really hoping to be able to counter that memory with the joy of a new pregnancy, but once again it's not meant to be. But as my husband says, if at first you don't succeed, try, try again...
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Nieces and Nephews
So I had a busy, busy week. My sister with her two kids in tow (and my mom as well) came to visit me for an entire week! I hadn't seen my nephew since his birth at the end of June, so it was good to get some bonding time in with him. It also afforded me the first opportunity to get my two neices together. It was hard to tell which one was bossing the other around, two three year old princesses used to being the center of attention!
The week was fun, but I think exhausting for everyone and I know they were glad to get back home and see their Daddy and Geoff and I enjoyed having our home to ourselves for a little while as well.
After the week-long visit, we all went together to Samford's Homecoming weekend. There were A Cappella concerts and Kate Campbell concerts and it was a busy blast! I also did my part by serving as part of a panel of speakers for the English Department, talking to English Majors about how I use my English Degree in my daily work in the investment and insurance arena. A bit of a stretch, but hey - I speak and write in English, so it works, right?
Anyway, on the homefront, we've officially started the injectible treatments so hopefully it's only a matter of time before all the above nieces and nephews (plus Stone who is allergic to my whole house and couldn't visit us) have a cousin (or two) to join them. I'm tired of taking pills and soon to be tired of sticking myself with needles. I'm tired of feeling nauseous 24/7 and I'm just generally tired. But if it pays off, it will all be worth it.
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
Still Here
I'm still here, in case anyone is wondering. Maybe I'll be back in the spirit of blogging again soon. I've told a number of folks that I have been feeling lately like I have to share so much of my personal life with so many strangers that it's becoming harder for me to talk about any of it with anyone. Every time I turn around there is another doctor's appointment with more questions. Sharing every little detail of my cycle is not all that exciting with doctors. I told my mom the other day that she's really the only person I feel like talking to about all of it.
Suffice it to say we've still got a long road ahead of us with our desire to have a baby. No, I don't really want to talk about it, but when I do, I'm sure I'll post something. It's October now and I think about where I would be if our first pregnancy had worked out. Now it's looking like that due date will pass without hope of our being pregnant again. It's amazing how nine months can fly by and yet seem like such an amazingly long length of time.
I'm trying not to lose hope. We are in the hands of some wonderful doctors who tell me something new every day. And I guess if there are various problems it's good to know about them and to be treating them. But it is frustrating to hear, oh, you have this or this wrong with you - that might be why you lost the first baby. And the pills and the injections that will seemingly never end...
I can't promise to post much, but I'll keep the blog up and open. Hopefully I'll have some fun things to post at the end of the month when I have a visit from my sister and the kids. I'm looking forward to this last hurrah before treatments start in earnest and I'm having to make regular weekly trips to Montgomery or Birmingham.
Anyway, just wanted to say that I'm still here...
Suffice it to say we've still got a long road ahead of us with our desire to have a baby. No, I don't really want to talk about it, but when I do, I'm sure I'll post something. It's October now and I think about where I would be if our first pregnancy had worked out. Now it's looking like that due date will pass without hope of our being pregnant again. It's amazing how nine months can fly by and yet seem like such an amazingly long length of time.
I'm trying not to lose hope. We are in the hands of some wonderful doctors who tell me something new every day. And I guess if there are various problems it's good to know about them and to be treating them. But it is frustrating to hear, oh, you have this or this wrong with you - that might be why you lost the first baby. And the pills and the injections that will seemingly never end...
I can't promise to post much, but I'll keep the blog up and open. Hopefully I'll have some fun things to post at the end of the month when I have a visit from my sister and the kids. I'm looking forward to this last hurrah before treatments start in earnest and I'm having to make regular weekly trips to Montgomery or Birmingham.
Anyway, just wanted to say that I'm still here...
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
About Time!
I guess it's about time I post again. I haven't been much of a blogger lately, but then I haven't been so consistent since the very beginning. My sister recently posted her 300th blog post, and I don't think I'm anywhere near that many. And I started my blog before her I think. Not that it matters one bit. I've been chastised for saying this before, but maybe when I have children I'll have something worth blogging about.
So, what to say? what to say? There is really not too much to report.
On the homefront, I've finihsed tacking the weekend project chairs (they truly were done that weekend) and finished all the odd jobs around the house as well (like the pillows that were pinned rather than sewn shut. Every day I come home and think what a nice home that I have to come home to. With every project I complete, I feel more and more comfortable and luxurious. I was thinking recently about "clothing" my house because that's what it feels like I'm doing. I think our house has become a good reflection of both Geoff and me and I like that. And doing it slowly means that we can get exactly what we want as opposed to buying things because they're inexpensive.
On the baby front, I have very little to report. We've taken a semi-break, so hopefully folks will stop asking us how it's going on that note (come on, folks, like we need your pressure on top of our own!). I've finished Clomid treatments and am thrilled to say that they're over even though they didn't do the trick. Some people don't react to the drug as strongly as I do, but it did me no good! I felt sooo depressed on it and the hot flashes by the final cycle got to be constant. I'm still experiencing these - this morning I woke with a bbt of 96.8 which is plenty low, but I was sweating like crazy. I can't wait until my hormones sort of get a little more normal - whenever that will be.
Anyway, after the drug-induced depression and the continued disappointment of not being pregnant, I'm laying low for a bit and getting a referral for a specialist clinic for when we decide to start back up. Our next move may very well be in vitro, so anyone for John & Kate Plus Eight? YIKES!
On the bright side, Geoff and I just celebrated 5 years of marriage and we're doing better than ever. I know folks who go through infertility issues and this kills their marriage - it has been doing the opposite to Geoff and I. We both really long for a family, but we are happier than ever just with the two of us. For my anniversary, Geoff let me go to the beach with a girlfriend for the weekend. When I returned, he had cleaned the house and cooked a really delicious roast. I was pampered Sunday and Monday and there's a lot of love going around this house. I really feel peaceful and happy despite our lack of success in the pregnancy arena. Who knows? Maybe that peaceful easy feeling is just what the doctor ordered!
I could probably write more, but why bore you with nothing special? Life is just life, moving onward one day at a time, and yet, I'm happy and at ease. I wish everyone had it as good as Geoff and I - that's how good I think I've got it.
Sorry in advance if I don't post for awhile again. I just haven't had much to say. I'll post something if anything happens. I think we're going to the football game next weekend so perhaps a post then. And my folks visit for the LSU game in a few weeks, so definitely then. So, until then...
So, what to say? what to say? There is really not too much to report.
On the homefront, I've finihsed tacking the weekend project chairs (they truly were done that weekend) and finished all the odd jobs around the house as well (like the pillows that were pinned rather than sewn shut. Every day I come home and think what a nice home that I have to come home to. With every project I complete, I feel more and more comfortable and luxurious. I was thinking recently about "clothing" my house because that's what it feels like I'm doing. I think our house has become a good reflection of both Geoff and me and I like that. And doing it slowly means that we can get exactly what we want as opposed to buying things because they're inexpensive.
On the baby front, I have very little to report. We've taken a semi-break, so hopefully folks will stop asking us how it's going on that note (come on, folks, like we need your pressure on top of our own!). I've finished Clomid treatments and am thrilled to say that they're over even though they didn't do the trick. Some people don't react to the drug as strongly as I do, but it did me no good! I felt sooo depressed on it and the hot flashes by the final cycle got to be constant. I'm still experiencing these - this morning I woke with a bbt of 96.8 which is plenty low, but I was sweating like crazy. I can't wait until my hormones sort of get a little more normal - whenever that will be.
Anyway, after the drug-induced depression and the continued disappointment of not being pregnant, I'm laying low for a bit and getting a referral for a specialist clinic for when we decide to start back up. Our next move may very well be in vitro, so anyone for John & Kate Plus Eight? YIKES!
On the bright side, Geoff and I just celebrated 5 years of marriage and we're doing better than ever. I know folks who go through infertility issues and this kills their marriage - it has been doing the opposite to Geoff and I. We both really long for a family, but we are happier than ever just with the two of us. For my anniversary, Geoff let me go to the beach with a girlfriend for the weekend. When I returned, he had cleaned the house and cooked a really delicious roast. I was pampered Sunday and Monday and there's a lot of love going around this house. I really feel peaceful and happy despite our lack of success in the pregnancy arena. Who knows? Maybe that peaceful easy feeling is just what the doctor ordered!
I could probably write more, but why bore you with nothing special? Life is just life, moving onward one day at a time, and yet, I'm happy and at ease. I wish everyone had it as good as Geoff and I - that's how good I think I've got it.
Sorry in advance if I don't post for awhile again. I just haven't had much to say. I'll post something if anything happens. I think we're going to the football game next weekend so perhaps a post then. And my folks visit for the LSU game in a few weeks, so definitely then. So, until then...
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